power beyond
It was right after the birth of my firstborn son, Liam. I was on a ministry trip to Kansas City with my brother. I remember getting on the plane, and I had such a strange fear. It was a worry that I never felt before. Because it wasn't logical worry, it was random worry that didn't make sense. It was my first time feeling Anxiety.
Over the years, it began to get worse, but it was never something that consumed me. Not until we moved to Texas. I began to feel Anxiety for every little thing. I hated to drive; I hated the unknown; I couldn't seem to shake this ugly feeling of worry.
As it worsened over the years, I still couldn't pin the emotion or worry until one day. I had a revelation...I was dealing with ANXIETY! I never thought I would have trouble with this! I trusted God with everything in my life; why suddenly am I giving in to fear? It came to the point where I began to feel like this was something I would always live with, that it would always be a battle in my spirit. I began to lose hope.
Then there was a breaking point. Now it didn't happen immediately. I feel like my problem worsened over the months and years. But at this moment with the Lord, He opened my eyes to something. As I was putting together my message on the Power of God, the Holy Spirit spoke to my heart. Just as I was finishing my last point, "Power Beyond," it was like a blindfold that had been over my eyes was suddenly removed.
Power Beyond meant that God can work in me and through me beyond anything I ever imagined. That He indeed is a God that does exceedingly, abundantly all that we can think or dream. The Holy Spirit began to speak to my heart. He said, "You know, you don't always have to struggle with this?" Of course, I argued within myself, but He persisted, "Son, you can be free from Anxiety."
I read the scripture again and again. And each time I read it, the truth began to peel the veil from my eyes. I said it out loud, "You mean I can be free!?" And now, instead of praying that God would help me deal with my Anxiety, I began to pray that God would set me free from my Anxiety. The revelation of "Power Beyond" pierced through all of my fleshly doubt. It changed the way I responded to fear. I no longer sit in it and wonder about all of the "what-ifs," but now I pray in faith and say I am Free! I have Power beyond my abilities. This means even if I don't feel strong enough to overcome, I know I have the Holy Spirit in me who has ALREADY overcome.
You may be going through something that feels impossible. You may be struggling and convincing yourself that your struggle is your life. Or that it will be a battle you will always need to fight. Maybe it's Anxiety, its addiction, maybe its hidden sin, perhaps its self-doubt. NO matter WHAT it is, you have Power beyond your abilities. You can be free!
HE indeed is a God who can do exceedingly, abundantly, BEYOND all we think is possible. You can walk in this Power. You can walk in freedom. You carry Power beyond.